Sad, Abraham Biggs commits Suicide on Web Cam with his Forum Post and Myspace

 

Ask a guy who is gonna OD (again) tonight anything,  Cached Forum LInk

The Note

To Whom It May Concern,
I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on.
I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows me
reads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I am
an a@#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never
change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am
not good enough for her. I have come
to believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and I
keep failing. I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in
the past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of telling
me that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing I
dread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not want
my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me
to kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. I
thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I
am right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every
new day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give
me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I think
that I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I?m always broke
and I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that?s about it.
I want my life to end. I am tired of f@#$ing up everything. I
am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I am
tired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and I
hope that my parents know that I f@#$ed up not them. It is my fault I
screwed up my own life.
The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or
those who have crossed my path.
This hate rages full force towards me and only me.
I have long forgiven those who’ve hurt me, but I have not and cannot
come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and
the things I’ve done to hurt those in my life.
You have all touched my life in one way or another,
especially those whom I call family.
I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. I
hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not
suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at
rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long.
Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hard
to fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so many
times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did,
that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am
has only brought myself and others pain.
I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created.
Forgive me.
Love always and forever,
As for my signature I will leave you with a quote so that if anyone
reads this they will know it’s me, “Can?t feel pain if your dead? Just Saying”
HIs MYspace
Pembroke Pines Teen Broadcasts Suicide on the Net
19 year-old Abraham Biggs overdosed on pills, including opiates and anti-depressants.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
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A Pembroke Pines teen commits suicide before a live online webcam audience after blogging about his plan, according to authorities.
Broward County medical examiner’s office investigator Wendy Crane says 19-year-old Abraham Biggs died Wednesday from a toxic combination of benzodiazepine, a depressant used to treat insomnia, and opiates.
Crane says some audience members were encouraging, others tried to talk him out of it, and a few were debating whether the dose he took was lethal.

Someone finally notified the moderator, who traced where the Pembroke Pines teen was located and called police.

A video clip from the webcast shows a police officer entering the room with his gun drawn, and checking for signs of life.

Biggs was already dead.
Crane says: “He’s just seen laying on the bed at that point.”

On Wednesday, Biggs reportedly chatted on another web forum under the name CandyJunkie and detailed the amount of drugs he was planning on taking to end his life.

His comments were not taken seriously because he was reportedly known for making empty threats.

Biggs then posted his suicide note where he said he had hurt people and was angry at himself for being a failure.

“I am an a@#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am not good enough for her,” he wrote.

WIOD has obtained the video of the webcast but has chosen not to release it out of respect for the family.

2 Responses to “Sad, Abraham Biggs commits Suicide on Web Cam with his Forum Post and Myspace”

  1. oh my god. i am so sorry…

    speachless- what a tragedy my sorrys to the parents and members…
    i loved Abrahams movies………I cant believe he commited suicide.( I am crying while writing this)………………………….666 devil vs angell.
    devil got him……………………………

  2. Smagree Says:

    нет диетам или прстой путь к снижению весафантом банановой диетыдиета 2 при язве желудкапохудеть за один месяцдиета для похудения рукзимниие диетыомела белая для похуденияалександра чвикова сидит на диетахсколько веситдиета и упражнения при геммороеобучение где пройти курсы диетологовдиеты для девылимонная вода для похуденияможно ли есть хурму во время гречневой диетыправила питания суповой диетойдиета минус 35 кг за месяцкак похудеть ребёнку за 2 днякак похудеть за месяц на 20-28 кгкак быстро похудеть в 16 летпохудеть с глюкофажрезкое похудение а вес остался тот же самый

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